Inshallah. Ameen ya Rab.
Allah, I ask that you protect my heart from becoming bitter, cold, and chronically disappointed. Replace my fears & hesitation with optimism & hope that someday I will become whole again.
لِيُنفِقْ ذُو سَعَةٍ مِّن سَعَتِهِ وَمَن قُدِرَ عَلَيْهِ رِزْقُهُ فَلْيُنفِقْ مِمَّا آتَاهُ اللَّهُ لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا مَا آتَاهَا سَيَجْعَلُ اللَّهُ بَعْدَ عُسْرٍ يُسْرًا
Let the rich man spend according to his means, and the man whose resources are restricted, let him spend according to what Allah has given him. Allah puts no burden on any person beyond what He has given him. Allah will grant after hardship, ease.
I ease myself with these words everyday. I ease others by reminding them the same. Allah is merciful, He won’t burden your soul more than you can bear correct? Yet sometimes I wonder, this hardship. This mental, physical hardship. My body can’t bear it. It can’t bear syncope randomly at random places. It can bear being a medical mess for those to clean up.
Verily with hardship comes ease,Allah says. I believe it. But sometimes I wonder about the burden. When will that be eased? And when will the burden of me being on others be eased? Cause surely my soul is way
Too weak to bear it. And my body? I can feel it failing on me day by day with each faint, each collapse and each fall. With each random dizzy spell. With each day going by with no energy and no stability in my body I just wonder. When will it be easier. When.
Makes you wonder if the ease is death or just leaving.
When I find a remedy to relieve heartache or sadness I always end up being sick.
Faint number 8 these weeks.
The body, mind and soul are surely connected.
Happiness is somewhere.
I should get an award for the amount of times I fainted these past two weeks. On number 7 now?
scarf-fac3 said: love you so much <3
Love you too❤️
Anonymous said: What do you do? Ur always at the UN lol
Lol I’m just a student. I had an internship for a while and just get updated with panels and conferences that interest me in my field of study. Like today was about about women and poverty so obviously I can’t miss out. Alhamdullilah to living in NY for me to have these opportunities though
Man, I hope happiness never enters their life and their tires get slashed.
Hmmm...isnt vengeance haram though?
Ummm Houston for a MUN CONFERENCE in a few months? Hell yeah let the fun begin!
I just realized I have 28 Islamic Ebooks on my phone and I always complain how I never have anything read on the train. This makes me damn happy.